Pedantic means, ‘excessively concerned with minor details or rules; over scrupulous’, and as I mulled this over my thoughts drifted to the time I worked in the hectic hub of administration and publishing with The Congregation. There was usually more to do than hours in which to do it, and frequently the day would include a multitude of unforeseen interruptions. I lost count of the times I went home thoroughly frustrated by the thought that I had done nothing all day!
Until the time Yahweh challenged that frustration by asking me what exactly I had done that was ‘nothing’! I remember thinking back over a packed, demanding, busy day and listing phone calls, meetings, visits, emergencies, impromptu prayer-share…none of which had been scheduled. As I wound down into stillness, I became aware of a heavy silence (Yahweh’s very good at these!) and started to feel uncomfortable and defensive. “But that’s not what I’d planned to do,” I wailed. “I need to do…I wanted to do…!” The silence seemed to get heavier; what did Yahweh want me to see?
Gradually I began to understand that believing Yahweh has a plan for me must be translated into the nitty gritty of everyday life. Life is lived by the day, in hours and minutes; if Yahweh is in charge then He has control of it all. Things that disturbed my work, upset my plans, thwarted my wishes, interrupted or annoyed me, all were known to Him. All were being bound into the pattern of His purposes for me. My over scrupulous concern with details had to be refined and purified. I learned to pray each morning that He would send into my day only that was in HIS plan for me, and to believe each evening that His Will had been done.
So, apparently, I am pedantic, but I bless Yahweh that, even so, He has taught me to understand and appreciate the great Eternal purpose that runs through all our moments and days.
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