For as long as I can remember I have known Yahshua, and I grew up accepting that He was personally interested in me! Not only did my parents cultivate this understanding, but He did, too. I remember the ‘worries and troubles’ of a small girl being ‘ironed out’ as a direct result of talking to my Friend. I have memories stretching back over seventy years when, as a small girl of four-going-on-five, I chatted to Him, confided in Him and asked for His help. I grew up with a conscious awareness of His Presence every day, and He never let me down!
When I was about eighteen, I was kneeling in prayer in response to a sermon of consecration, when He drew near to me in a powerful, startling reality and flashed into my heart a vision of Himself as just a young Man, but with a divinely appointed, anointed mission; and I tumbled head-over-heels in love with Him. From that moment I longed to know Him more clearly, understand Him deeply, and ‘find Him’ for myself. Yahweh promised that, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart” [Jeremiah 29:13]. Seeking and finding, seeing and knowing, loving and understanding have occupied my entire life; and still He is able to surprise me with discovery.
Am I the first to set out on such a quest? Certainly not, and neither will I be the last. There are countless books written, sermons preached, and testimonies shared about this search and yet the Apostle Paul writes, “…there is no one who seeks [Yahweh]” [Romans 3:11]. How can that be correct? What does it mean? Oswald Sanders writes, “It is not man’s quest for [Yahweh], but [Yahweh’s] quest for man. The initiative is always with Him.”
The first recorded question came from Yahweh, “Adam, where are you?” He queried. He made the initial move in the garden - and has been doing that ever since. I see that it was when Yahshua approached me, that I responded so passionately. It is wonderful [and humbling] to realise that He was seeking for me, even as I was seeking for Him.
How is your quest?