It was not, perhaps, ‘yeast’ (anger), I thought, but ‘yeast extract’ (irritation). How easy it is to forgive ourselves for ‘yeast extract’! I know anger is wrong and so when it surges I am driven to my knees, but…irritation? Well this was a long-standing irritation that reared its head fairly regularly, and the Holy Spirit shone His searchlight determinedly into that forgotten corner and gave me no rest until I sought Yahweh about it.
“Please forgive me,” I begged and then, “Yahshua, why do I get like this? What’s behind it?” I cried. The response sent me to my knees. “It’s a basic selfishness,” He said. Shock made me re-evaluate my ‘irritation’ and I saw it for what it really was – ugly and sinful, a ‘leaven of wickedness’ (1 Corinthians 5:8) that I definitely didn’t want to take with me into the Feast. As I asked for forgiveness I realised I needed more of the fruit of long-suffering and (tentatively) asked for that. I say ‘tentatively’ since I knew that Yahweh would help me to develop the fruit by sending more situations my way that needed me to ‘suffer long’ and I only hoped I was up to it! I am a work in progress – how about you?
Yahweh is so gracious, kind and just. I love the way, as we prepare for His Feasts, He works in our lives again and again. The conviction of His Holy Spirit brings us to repentance, forgiveness and change and He continually works with us and in us to fit us to be His ambassadors in our world.
HAVE A BLESSED & JOYOUS FEAST!